There is an article floating around “To Fall in Love With Anyone, Do This”. The original study is linked here. This being the month of love and me sans amour, I’m going to answer the questions and see if you, darling bystander to my misadventures, love me for it. The feauted image comes from Ginger Dead on Etsy, please a sweetheart (teehee) and go check out their shop.
1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?
American McGee. I loved his reinvention of Alice in Wonderland, and desperately need the collection of short films, Otherworlds. Anyone who could see that in what so many write off as drugs or insanity is someone I would like to spend time with.
2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?
Yes, maybe as famous as Beyonce or Michael Jackson or Princess Diana. The kind of fame that spans generations. I want to be famous for doing everything, psychology, fashion, music, writing, acting, being fabulous, being good through and through. I want to become someone people look at and see greatness in, see a future they would like to be a part of. Live that surreal life.
3. Before making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?
Yes, always. Usually just in my head, but if I just woke up or I’m nervous I write it down. I think I get tongue tied when I can’t see the other person, when there are no cues to tell you when it’s your turn or their turn to speak or eye contact.
4. What would constitute a “perfect” day for you?
Waking up without feeling dizzy or groggy, ready to take on the day. Get dressed in some ridiculous gown that has no place being on anyone at 9am, get coffee, do big makeup, my eyebrows are perfectly symmetrical and at the right height. It would be a gloomy, overcast day, go to Sephora find the perfect collection of purple eyeshadow, get a hot dog. Find a coffin purse for really really cheap at a thrift store. Friend at least 12 people on some social media, take a picture with a stranger or two. Get cake for lunch. Film a video, paint a box, go to work. Find out why people seem to be so stand offish, hug a coworker. Drink more coffee. Have steak and lobster with egg whites on the side and truffle oil cucumber and kale salad. Go dance under a street light, feel more beautiful in fading make up than when I first put it on. Go for a drive with a cute person, bask in the glory that is our friendship. Smoke a cigarette while sipping a tiny cup of coffee. Go home fall asleep in make up, dream about finding that hidden library in Russia.
5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?
Ten minutes ago to myself. To someone else? Sunday, January 25th, 2015. It was a really lovely night, I’d like to remember that date.
6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30 year old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?
Mind. Obviously mind. Even if I ended up looking like Smegel I could still create fabulous things.
7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?
Cancer probably, it’s not a secret.
8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common?
I imagine you, my partner, to be a curious individual, emotionally invested in this experiment but a little more for yourself than you know learning about me. We both like this weird shade of cyan, we don’t love it, but it’s nice to look at it. We both think my nails that I just got done are fucking bitchin’.
9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?
The bad times, because I made some impulsive choices that led me to this chapter of my life I’m so happy to be living.
10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised , what would it be?
That my parents pushed me to skip the sixth grade. I feel like that is the cataclysmic shift that went the wrong way.
11. Take four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as possible.
When I was a kid they always told me that I had to choose one single path in life. I was really scared that I would miss out on something amazing because I was on the wrong path and this was only solidified watching adults realize they made the wrong decision later in life. I also was in love with LARPing, but never had anyone to do it with. So I was a lonely kid with a wicked imagination. So my teenager years were spent trying desperately to weave this perfect medley between surreal and typical adulty stuff like paying bills. I’m still working on that. I love being a little goth kid, I think I would look at the world very differently if I wasn’t one. I tried to kill myself. That was not so fun. I mostly spend a lot of time feeling like I’ve lived twice as much as a normal person, like time does not feel the same to me. Being social is exhausting and then I’m wickedly impatient, so that might have something to do with it.
(I totally did that wrong, but It’s 3 am and I wanted to cover the core.)
12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would it be?
To read people’s minds. I’d try not to abuse it, but I imagine being able to semi experience what another person experiences like for therapy would be immensely useful.
So that’s the first set. Feel free to leave your own answers in the comment section below or link the blog where you’ve posted yours. Please don’t short link it. Are you guys looking forward to Valentine’s Day? I’m not, but I’m going to try and do something nice for the people I’ll be working with on that day. It’s important to remember that bad things happening do not stop you for doing good things. I hope you find love within yourself and know there is always someone who loves you.
Until next time,
Don’t be hungry for life. Be ravenous.